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Is it only me?

Or are there others out there that feel that we don’t have much time. Almost 20 and almost my whole life is gone already. Give me another 5 years of uni, give me another 5 years of fun, of games, of work, of living. Hello 30’s. Then give me a family, a job, a career, a mortgage. 

Where’s my life then? Gone into making someone else’s life better than my own. Not that I don’t want to, but, wow. I have less than 10 years left to really make the most of my life. Because really, after 30, maybe even before then, it’s not even mine anymore, it’ll be dedicated to a family and more adult things that I don’t even know about yet. 

Maybe I’m thinking too much into this, but it’s really scaring me. Life as I think about it, so over. I haven’t even done the things I’ve always planned. Travel the world, live and study in a foreign country, learn how to ski. 

Everything’s moving so quickly, and there wasn’t a time that I could go back and prepare, it’s something that just occurs, and I have to do now. How did everyone else do it.

I’m terrified. This can’t be how it goes.

Posted 6 months ago — 2 notes